Wednesday

Dashed out of classroom during FTC period w/o permission.
Got scolded in front of the whole class.
But she didn’t hand me to Mr Bastri.
Training, Pair up with Esther & played double.
It was a very close fight! 14-16.
Joanne and Mindy match against Jin wan and a guy was super intensive!
And after that, Li fang taught me some of the mistake I made in my test.
She volunteer to be my tutor for free, she’s really very kind!

Thursday

My cooking went all wrong!
I put too much cheese in the cream sauce, causing it to be super sticky.
Ping seong touch 3 guys butt in a row in front of me, laughing with an evil smile. -.-
Mrs. Leow came in for our class FTC period! <3
Had a nice little sweet chat with her.
Head to Xin Ming secondary school for tournament.
While warming up for the strokes, I keep on jumping to hit the shuttle { LOL }and did some other funny strokes or method.
Xin yi, Ice lemon tee, Chen yan and I keep on laughing like mad.
After a while we became serious lah. Haha.
We lost every match but it’s alright, since we already knew the outcome.
I <3 C division girls, had a great cheer and many laughter today! :)

Efficiency.

I think life nowadays for me has been rather peaceful.

Used to get caught by Mr Bastri and Mr Kumar, but recently there isn’t any case for two weeks.
No more love problems. No more boys are in my life.
I realized I changed a lot since secondary one. I become more sensible, independent.
I have aims now. Studies and Badminton come first!

Of course, I have only myself to rely on.
I must go it alone
all on my own
and believe in myself
because I'm all I have.
And who I become
depends only on me.
I don’t need anyone or who
To rely on.


Life is a journey, we just started, so if any obstacle come by, don’t give up; Continue ahead, there’s a long path waiting for you to be completed. {Typing to myself}
I’ll remember in my head what coach said to us today.


I just finished my art! All the sports player I cut is from mainly from Thailand.
I was randomly browsing through my mum newspaper and found lots of nice picture.
Yay! I’m cooking cream pasta on Thursday! {smile gleefully}
Hopefully, it wouldn’t turn out to be so bad :S
I will take dozens of pictures! Stay tune! Lol
We are playing against Xin min secondary this coming Thursday!
I guess I wouldn’t be playing as I played two matches already.
But if I got the chance, of course I’ll do my very best lah! (:

I’m supposed to be with my church mate in china town right now.

I went online shopping again.
Spend 60$ on some beauty product. My mother fork out half of the amount cause she ordered some too.
My swollen swell down abit, but I think it make no differences. ):

I didn’t go for school today.
My left eyelid swells until very jia lat.
Can’t see my double eyelid sio, lest eyes small, right eyes big. I broke out into uncontrollable sob and ran to my dad room. He told me to go back and sleep, later on then go clinic.
I didn’t went back to sleep, I thought I got disease {made-up} haha.

The doctor told me not to put on contact lenses for two weeks?!
And have three day rest.
God, there is badminton training and church meeting tomorrow!
& there is church and outing with bestie on Sunday!!! Grrrrrrr
The swell is getting better now, my double eyelid can see abit only…..
And later when I got home, I realized the swell is as though I apply red eye shadow on my eyelid! Damn fulgy.

I and yifan played a match against marsling secondary last Tuesday.
It turns out to be alright, I wasn’t nervous one bit.

Today played against Northbrook secondary.
All those attentions from seniors are making me…….. Blanked out.
Seeing my every step, every move I take.…
My heart could not help palpitating…
In spite of losing points due to my carelessness, we won in the end.
But to me, it was a total utter dismay! :/
I’m feeling very fed up with myself! Why can I make things turn out right?!
In the match, I didn’t even think of coach, Benny and teammates advice.
All I did is to play stupidly, forgetting all the footwork, stamina woring out rapidly and worse, I didn’t cover for yifan!
Am I going to prove myself that I can do better?
I’m prepared for any tough training!

I wished that the ground would open up and swallow me up.

Went to cwp for church.
@ 9.30.
First time wearing skinnes and converse shoese. lol abit werid.
Alot of thing to mention, but fast forward lol.
I know some people name already!
Long xiang, Weiwen, Felica, Ah he, Ah pui, Charlene.
I got to know one of my ex-senoir from CHR. Forgot his name though! -.-
Went to sun plaza and brought one really cool hat and a sling bag.
I'm using that bag when i get tired from using my domo bag. :/

Time past so fast & there is school tommorow!
k, bye!

A very fast blog post,
On last Friday, didn’t go to school.
Catch the movie one missed call with sister.
Damn, a lot of weird memories came running through my head when seeing couples acting lovely- dovy :/
Anyway, I’m getting the ring tone from Jacky on Monday! (:

On Saturday, today.
Went badminton training, Coach changed my partner! ):
But I’m fine with anyone la! (:
I got news that i & yifan will be playing a match with marsling sec this coming tuesday!
Second time playing with other schools, abit nervous. :/
I trained my backhand wit ice-lemon tea, can block lots & lots of smashes!
After training, I and Cheryl went to the childcare there, put our stuff then went to nearby court play badminton and some other physical training to train our wrist and arm.
Went back after 45 mins. Bathed.
Then many people came. So many friendly people!
We sang Chinese song, lol quite weird, because I’m not very familiar with singing Chinese songs .
Then we got this activity, fun! Requires to use our brain to think how to entangle our hand. Many funny patterns.
Then group disscusion! There is this sec 3 guy smile very handsome and super friendly and outgoing! Forgot his name though.
I made more then 10 friends in a day! Hehe.
Reached home around 8pm.



K, I stop here.
Thanks god

The Crevice

by Nikiness

The sun used to shine on me,there used to be a fluffily clouded sky.
I knew about something called happy.
I always knew just where I wanted to be.

That sun is gone,replaced by night.
those clouds now carry low thunder,I only know misery and frightend
I don't even recognize me.

If it were wished,I would count the cold tears I've shed
but none of it would matter,there would still be
the lost happy I don't remember.

PS: This poem describe my life perfectly, i used to know what happiness meant.
It really touched me deeply, It's great to come across a poem that I can understand and enjoy, and that has something to say to my own personal situation.
I don't feel like studying already, f maths problem.


My sis download a mircosoft thingy for writing in chinese.
Just trying out..

就是开不了口 让他知道
就是那么简单几句， 我也无法办不到。
我只能够远远看著。。。。。。。

Today,

Came late for school. Reach around 7.35am.
Lecture by Mdm Foo and Mr Ang.
Stayed back @ the hall till 10am.
Recess. Thanks Jieying! <3
Lit, maths. Went to 4/9, expect to have 1 hr detention but there wasn’t any.
Took back my hp and walk to causeway point with Xiao ping.
Take 912 bus and chat with one 2/6 guy.

Going for afternoon nap. Bye

You were always there.
It's hard to look at the pictures, and get memories of you.

Didn’t go for badminton training today…..
Instead, I attend the edusave scholarship @ fuchun primary.
On the way, I was feeling rebellious, so I deliberately shouted at my father.
Sigh, maybe I felt a little numbed in exhaustion from waking up too early, or was it due to crying last night? I don’t know which.
I didn’t expect many students to turn up. Whoa.
Saw a few of CHR students and two of my classmates.
At first, my imagination was to get 150$ only.
When I got the paper, look at the envelope sealed with the cheque, its 300$.
Lol, when I told my dad, he was smiling like a contended old man.
Sorry dad for wht I did today, you didn’t even chide at me…
I’m very remorseful and guilty now :l

K, I confirm I will go swimming {not swimming, lol playing water} when I am free!
@ wdl complex. Today evening I’m going alone, till 8 plus at night bah.
Watching the stars……… unblinking.

I’ll be meeting up with my best friend really soon.
Hope she isn’t rly packed with homework and stuff!

I don’t know why the sight of you just make my heart sank.
You just keep on appearing wherever I go and I can’t avoid it.
I remember how you intended the break up on that day…..
I was in the Mrt and I just started sobbing like mad, it didn’t matter if people juz stare at me, I just lost my first love.
Don't you know i need the support of losing my best friend? how could you be so cruel to break with me during that period of time?
I already lost my bestfriend....... now you.
Untill this very day, I could hear the sound echoing of my heart shattering into a million pieces. Can’t describe the agony.
It rly hurt too much to be ignored and uncared for.

Thanks to my entire friend in school. <3
I hope i can adapt walking home alone & not missing to drink clam chowder @ mos buger.

31. Dec. 07

Been to cousin chalet @ siloso beach.
Had a lot of fun there. =)
While eating, Ah jie go ask me questions about my ex.
Waleu, he even dare to ask whether I already lost my that one to him.
Took me for awhile to understand what he was trying to explain. -.-
But he did give me some meaningful advice, and funny ones too!
Played some games and lucky draw….
Played games with cousin too, drank two cups of coke, consisting ¼ of wine coz I didnt focus, many laughter!
There was a beach party held at siloso beach.
Ew, so many bangala hanging out there.
Our elder cousin brought us to the other side of the siloso beach to see the fireworks for the countdown.
There is still a lot, a lot to mention, but I guess I stop here. (:
Hmmmm, went back, ate supper then lights off @ ard 5.30.

1.01.08
Woke up @ ard 8.40.
Wash up then sat tram to palawan, to eat our breakfast.
Sat tram again.
K then me& siforni sat tgt on the skyride.
We were both concentrating on our foot, coz we thought our slippers are gna drop off.
After that, we headed to the Singapore museum, so much stuff to see!
Afterwards, we took the Lunge{go cart}. I was the last one to arrive! Lol
Went back to chalet, All of us changed into our swim suit.
I wanted to wear one piece swimming suit, but Joey urge me to wear the bikini .
I was like…….. ..
But I gave in, wore the bikini top, along with the FBT pants.
Haha, siforni wore it too! Almost drowned at the 2m area. Coz I was trying to imitate her swimming style. I want to learn swimming! :l
Then head to the siloso beach to play volleyball, I didn’t join in.
After a while, ah joy came and I went with her to coffee bean to buy cakes. Chatted too :/
Sat tram back, waleu, got three Bangladesh man sit beside me, calling me sister and offering to take picture wit them, of coz I declined la! Zzzz.
Went back to the chalet, swam for about 20 mins, then bath.
Others went cycling while i stayed at the chalet.
Reached home nearly 6pm. =)

Pictures will be upload soon.
I hope next year new year eve, during the launch of firwork, i can get to see with my loved one...


1st week of school, I wouldn’t be attending uh.
I dread to see your face.
Sorry zolene,amanda. You trusted me yet i didnt promised you.....
Don't beat me up in school when you see me on monday! -.-